it's only monday

It doesn't feel like Monday - and I'm not quite sure if that's a good thing ...

Today, I was added to a group on Facebook ... for my high school class' 10 year reunion. Yes, it has been 10 years since I graduated from high school. I feel sick to my stomach ... not because of the 10 years ... I could care less how many years it has been since "back in the day" ... But, just thinking about high school ... and all that that entailed.

Looking over that page, I realized that these 100+ people knew me for more than just a few months or a few classes, but 4 years. It's been a long time since I've been in that sort of environment. Everywhere I've gone over the past few years has involved starting over with a new life (almost), having to meet new people and make new friends ... (mostly unsuccessful, but a "go" nonetheless).

While the moves have been somewhat successful ... Master's degree ... a job ...they have also left me relatively isolated. I don't really know what it's like to be around friends anymore. It's been over a year - with only a handful of visits back to California ... which have left little to no time to just "hang out" or "go to lunch" or "go to a coffee shop" with someone and just talk about random things. Phone calls are awful substitutes. They leave my arm numb (still losing feeling in that thing), and my ear burning.

Anyway - I don't really want to go to the reunion, but I guess we'll see how I feel when it comes around.